The little pictures, they creep up and surprise me here and there.
For the last several years, I’ve pictured myself dropping Gabe off at kindergarten and returning home to my childless abode. When I got pregnant and my due date was in November, I adjusted the picture. I’d be dropping Gabe off at kindergarten heavy and [...]
I woke up in a funk this morning, not wanting to get out of bed and not wanting to move, really. It just felt awful to face a new day, which made me sad because it is Gabe’s last full week at home before school starts, and I want to suck the life out of [...]
Oof… this hurts! I’m trying to write some things down – bring some summary and cohesion to our experiences as of late. It is like pulling teeth. Probably doesn’t help that I’m in a hotel room feeling entirely cramped and uninspired while my 5-year-old tortures us with lack of sleep. Lucky for me I remembered [...]
On Thursday I had a sonohysterogram (SHG), the very long and fancy way of saying I had an ultrasound with a bonus. The ultrasound is a regular transvaginal ultrasound (which is a “treat” in and of itself). The bonus was the catheter of saline they injected into my uterus while performing said transvaginal ultrasound.
Fun, right? [...]
If you’re a counselor – even (maybe especially) if you’re a Christian counselor – do not tell your new counselee that “all things work together for good.”
No, no, no!
That is all!
I made progress today!
If you came to my house, you would not think I made progress. No, Gabe sat on the couch for no less than 7 hours and played computer games. By the time Tahd got home from work I felt like a colossal failure and averted my eyes when I told him of [...]
(Oh, what a year! How things change. I never imagined I could be simultaneously more broken and stronger one year later. I never imagined that I’d get to the point where I’d rather talk than pretend the “yuck” wasn’t happening. This post was originally published one year ago today. Just needed to spend some time [...]
For the last month, I’ve been wracking my brain trying to figure out what we did differently, what worked to finally make this pregnancy thing happen. We did several things that I imagine have no bearing whatsoever, things like:
We left our back hallway door open. It gives us better feng shui that way. I’m a [...]
I’ve been working on a post on why I think I might have gotten pregnant this particular month instead of the 54ish other months we tried. Short answer? I don’t know. The long answer will follow…
However, while I work up the courage to pull the trigger on that post and while I wait for Tahd [...]
Every day Gabe gets bigger and older and more grown-up. And every day I get sadder.
I noticed this trend sometime during the last year. He was no longer a baby, no longer a toddler. He was hardly a preschooler and was turning into a boy. A real little boy with independence and humor and curiosity. [...]
