I am tired. Really, really tired. Like my insides are tired. My soul is tired.
Do you ever get like that?
It’s not depressed-tired, although there’s an element of that. It’s not physical tiredness, although there’s some of that, too. If you go to bed too late and wake up too early (*too* is relative here – I realize that), you’ll be tired. No, I am tired. Heidi. Who I am. My spirit. The main culprits – the primary things that have gotten me here – are the first surgery, the ivf process, gearing up for several ministries at my church, being sick and the second surgery. It has been the succession of stressors, one after the other, with not enough regrouping between each one.
I’m not looking for sympathy. I consider this something that just happens sometimes. It’s a season. It will pass. What I’m more interested in is knowing how you renew yourself when you’re tired. What do you do? How do you handle yourself? Your family? Your priorities? Your life?
Of course, I’d love for my solution to be a week of solo vacation coupled with regular spa treatments and dates and girls’ nights out every week when I return. But that’s not realistic. Especially in a financial sense. I’m particularly curious about how you refresh yourself when resources are slim and you have to maintain at least some of your regular responsibilities.
What makes your soul feel happy? What makes you sigh a happy sigh? What habits bring energy into your life rather than eat up what little energy already exists for you? Where do you go that makes you feel peaceful? How do you treat yourself? What makes you feel most joyful?
Let me think on this one Heidi. I think that given a day or so, I will come up with some answers. And I may even blog my own response, if you don’t mind.
That is hard. Things that rejuvenate me have changed over time. Some of the constants are my “getaways” — reading and watching movies and exercising when I can bring myself to actually do it. Getting out for a date night is always good, even just a dinner with DH sans child. Cleaning sometimes rejuvenates me. Over New Years we redecorated our guest room for under $300 and now I smile every time I sit at my desktop because the new paints warms my soul. Blogging and reading others blogs sometimes brings me peace, and sometimes really stresses me out. Yoga. Tea. Coffee. Candles. A long shower. All kind of cliche, but it’s all I got….I hope your soul finds it’s energy source soon
i wish i had some good advice for you. i find myself in your current situation more often than not. i usually just trudge through – which is not my recommendation! lol
i think one of the biggest things that has helped me is being in nature. that is really tough this time of year. but in the warmer months i love being outside, preferably by water. i love the rhythm of the waves, the sound of the birds, the smell of the grass…..ooooo, i hate winter!!
BUT, if this works for you too, maybe go to the Domes? sometimes i write while i’m there. have a little “brutally honest with God time / pour my guts out time”.
i wish i had more for you. let us know what you come up with!
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